When i start to burst into tears in front of my plant design supervisor, i knew that i am at my limit. Thats not the worst cases of me, getting lectured or fired. And i am not even offended with the words came out from him. I already got that a lot from my manager during my practical training as well as during the Nihongo class at high school for almost each week. Still i won't cried. Its too embarrassing.

Its a 120 pages something of report which we spent days and nights for few consecutive days to finish. And the progress of finishing the task were started from the early week of this semester. When the reports were rejected once (last night of course), we spent hours of our night to redo again. And when they were rejected for the second time today.. The least i can do was crying.

Since the door was left opened, people passing by were keep their eyes on us. Still i don't mind. Till Dr. Mazrul who was passing by suddently stopping by. And that was a double embarrassing moment i ever had in my life. I covered my face. Tried to cool down and laugh to cover the tears. Dr. Mazrul ask my supervisor what is happening. He knew i was crying. and he smile. He knew me. He was once become my supervisor for my industrial training. And i was like, "hahaha. apa nieh sir. malu." Dr. Mazrul took the report and go through with it where he came to a conclusion that the report is good and everything seems ok and well arranged. Thats when he smile at me again and said, "its ok. Plant Design is sure a tough time for you, thats a period where u will cried, depressed.. But after this, when u flash back all these things, thats when u see how great that period is. I have been through that period. so i knew how it goes".

Its a big relief when my supervisor finally putting his signature there. When everyone else were already submitted theirs last night, we did those today. Still he want a copy of editted report by next week. 

Tak apalah. Itu pun dah cukup untuk saya rasa lega. Saya menangis bukan kerana saya kena marah. Tapi sebab saya sedih apa yang saya usahakan bersama kawan-kawan, banyak waktunya tanpa tidur dan tanpa punya kesempatan makan, masih salah dan tiada pernah kena. Dah seminggu macam nieh. Badan dan fikiran saya, dan kami, sungguh memang sudah sampai ke puncak kekuatannya. Cubalah untuk tidak tidur 2 malam. Kalian akan bangun berdiri lama terpinga apa yang kalian mahu lakukan sedangkan tangan kalian memegang toiletries dan towel untuk mandi. Kalian mungkin juga akan meminta diulang percakapan 3,4 kali kerana kalian tidak faham apa yang sedang disampaikan. Mungkin juga kalian boleh lupa kalian belum makan lagi nasi tengah hari tadi yang kalian beli. Lebih teruk lagi kalian lupa untuk berak bila kalian sibuk menahan buangan mengejar masa. Bertambah teruk bilamana kalian lupa kalian belum solat Asar lagi kerana sibuk mengejar masa yang mana akhirnya usaha kalian ditolak mentah-mentah. 

Waktu itu, kalian cuma berharap punya ruang untuk berehat sebenarnya.