Love?

Bismillah..

Is Mei a month full of emotions, err emotions in the negative way perhaps.. I'm not sure.. Corrects me if i'm wrong. But i guess few of my friends there at facebook are having their ups and downs in their relationship. Everyone is posting a sad status regarding their relationship, quotes full of emotions, of love and of being love. 

Hey guys!! Wake up. Jangan sedih2.. Lots to treasure is it? instead of pushing yourself thinking of errr perhaps a minor character of your own life while wasting your time on it. You are a hero of your own life story. So no worry ok as in the end, it is you whose the whole story is focusing on while the minor character is nothing unless some tiny particles who actually characterized you and help you to be you. Do believe me at 1 point when you start to grow up and see the thing the way you guys should at first see it, perhaps that moment there is nothing left over except a bunch of meaningful memory and a nice cute smile in your expression.

It's being a year and i start to understand the thing which at first i ever denial to understand. It's hard to make people understand but it's harder to make you yourself to understand the thing. It's hard when you need to totally change your environment from being cared, being to be listened, being to be understand to a totally plain world hears of nothing except the sounds of your own breath.

No one loves to wake up or actually being woke up at the middle of night just to read a message of maxis deducting your credits for credit advance when you are actually hoping for someone who text you saying a night full of bless and some sort of other nice adorable words. No one loves to be alone when all your friends or roommates start to hold a phone talking a piece of crap with their 'lover or lovers' up to an hour or more while you yourself know you got no one to talk that time as your relationship with your parents are also messed up. And no one love to be alone on the day of your new born while others are happily celebrating it with their 'someone'. 

being a human, we can't hold everything at the same time in our 2 hands.. unless people are nude enough to give a trial with their own ass. to get a real love from a kind of love, holds that love tightly in your hands till the very end of your breath. when you start to search for God's love, do trust me others' love seems actually nothing, but still something. I do love my family, I do love my friend, but it is totally a mess up without the love of the Greatest who give us all that feelings of love to love each other. I once lost it, so i wont mess up my life by loosing it twice.

Aku hanya mampu mendoakan kebahagiaan kawan2 aku. Moga mereka benar2 temui apa yang mereka cari. Aku memahami kerana suatu ketika aku sendiri pernah berada di siti. Dan aku di sini bukan siapa2. Aku cuma manusia yang mula nampak arah tujuan kehidupanku. Kata dia, itu Nur Yana namanya. Ah, manisnya ungkapan itu.. Sehabis mampu sedaya kudratku akan ku pegang nur itu. kuatkan aku Ya Rabb.. kuatkan mereka..